Did I meme correctly
And I’m back, by popular demand.
I’m having a hard time finding reasons to stay alive lately.
I should not have to hide my self-harm scars to make others more comfortable.
It’s easy to say size doesn’t matter when you’re already skinny. When the world doesn’t look at you with disgusted eyes. When you don’t have to hear “are you sure you need a second portion?” When you can show off your body without the fear of people laughing and pointing. Sure size doesn’t matter to you because you’re already the right size.
someone: hey can i ask you a personal question?
my oversharing ass already bursting to answer the question: moi?
Let’s Get Real About Self-Harm
I have battled with self-harm for 12 years; and like many, my body bears the evidence. I have also been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. BPD and self-injury go hand in hand with around 70-75% of individuals diagnosed engaging in some form of self-mutilation. In fact, it is the only disorder where deliberate self-harm is included as a criteria marker. Although the BPD population contains a high percentage of self-harmers, self-harm is also seen in multiple other mental health conditions, such as: depression, bipolar disorder, and eating disorders. Unfortunately, even with conversations about mental health and mental illness becoming more common and accepted, one facet often left out is self-harm.
Self-injury has persisted in its taboo throughout western culture which can have damaging effects on an already vulnerable group of individuals. I am an advocate for mental health and often speak out about my own struggles; however, I can’t escape the sense of shame I feel when I notice someone glancing at my bare arms or legs. I can’t help but fold my arms across my body when I’m trying to have a conversation because the other person’s eyes remain fixated on my scars/fresh cuts/bruises. I endeavor to charge through the world, unashamed and unabashed, but I will still end up putting on a sweater in the middle of summer because the weight of judgement is crushing. Shame, guilt, and regret often envelop the world of someone who self-harms, and judgemental glances or remarks can fuel these already adverse feelings. When you’ve engaged in self-harm, being reminded of that fact is usually the last thing you want; whether that be pointing out scars or just asking about cuts/burns/bruises.
Although I believe we should open up a conversation to self-harm, I would be much more comfortable discussing my experiences on my own terms rather than uncomfortably explaining why I deliberately hurt myself to someone nonchalantly asking in the middle of Petco (yes, that happened). Self-harm is a very real part of mental illness and is one that cannot and should not be ignored. For years, I was too scared to tell anyone about my self-harm for fear of being judged, hated, or ostracized by my peers. I know this is a sensitive and difficult subject; but, take it from someone who knows, refusing to have open and healthy conversations about it or simply judging those who have done it is only going to exacerbate the problems.
Reblog for a miracle to happen tonight
do it my dad bought me tickets to infinity war premiere :))
I’m actually gonna try it myself now
I need a FULLTIME JOB
WITH BENEFITS
DO IT!! THE UNIVERSE IS LISTENING! 💫
I want someone to shoot their shot in my dms.
Fuck it, I need some good luck
Reblogging again this
Last time I reblogged, I got an all-expense paid trip to Puerto Rico.
The first thing people usually say to me when talking about BPD is “oh, that’s like bipolar disorder, right?” While the two disorders do share certain similarities, they are very separate and distinct illnesses. So please enjoy my extremely simplified flowchart demonstrating a few of the differences between the two.
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